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Prologue
01:24
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Tear open all your scars
And SUCCUMB
(OH)
When we die, where do we go?
Is the pain worth it? Please let me know.
Leave me to rot, All on my own
Away from the light, I built my home
Into the Darkness
I embark
Upon a Mission
To free, my heart
From the shackles
From the pain
I’m breaking, MY Chains
EEEE-nough is Enough
Have I not suffered Enough?
Tear down the walls of all we knew
Deep down inside, I will bury you
A hopeless failure, Trapped in my mind
I’m out of chances; Out of time
Intoxicated
By the pain
Break the shackles
Of memory
Peel back the scabs
(And) bleed with me
Peel back the scabs
Bleed, Bleed
(This is not)
What I pictured, what I feel
Slowly giving
Into the Pain, Into the Pain
To the people
That I love
Please, know that
This is not me, This is not me
(This is not)
Who I am
Now I feel
EVERYTHING
That you say
In my chest, Taunting me
Now I feel, Everything
Who I am, That you say
In my chest, Taunting me
Haunting me, Killing me
It still slowly seeps inTO ME
EEEE-nough is Enough
Have I not suffered Enough?
Why must I SUCCUMB
To this anguish
To this pain
To this hatred
To this fucking heartache
To this shame
Holding on but
It is all a
Waste
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3. |
Of Birth and Burial
05:35
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Of Birth and Burial
Is not the life I seek
Fighting off complacence
Coping with Uncertainty
The Dreams, that I cherish
These wounds, haunt me
Take my hand, before I perish
Life and Death, Harmony
Cacophonous mortality
A Mental abnormality
Nightmarish reality
Seeking out finality
I cannot fucking stand it
The voices within me
I cannot fucking stand it
Today’s the day I end it
Is today
The Day
That I cross the fucking line
Is today
The Day
That I throw it all away
Of Birth and Burial
Is there a point to this?
Warding off Abeyance
Coping with uncertainty
The road, that I follow
This rope taunts me
Take my heart, leave me hollow
Love and Hate, Tarnish me
Embracing audacity
Burdened by tenacity
Reaching mental capacity
Embodying catastrophe
I cannot fucking stand it
The voices within me
I cannot fucking stand it
Today’s the day I end it
Is today
The Day
That I commit suicide
Is today
The Day
That I throw my life away
Of Birth and Burial
Is not the life I seek
Fuck the tenacious
Fuck the ignorant
Is today
The Day
That I commit suicide
Is today
The Day
That I throw it all away
Could it be
The Day
That I end my fucking life
Could it be
The Day
That I end my fucking pain
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There is nothing left
For me to hold onto
Suffering is now
The Anchor I latch onto
Is there no escape
From the thoughts in my head
Suppressed within my mind
I can’t fucking take it
(I AM VOICELESS)
Here I stand, now waiting
(Now) Waiting for the day
That we are the same
But until then, I will bear
I will endure the pain
Are we not the same?
Not the same?
Why the fuck am I
So fucking nervous?
What the fuck did I
Do to deserve this?
Screaming out for help
No one fucking listens
No escape from hell
Blamed for my condition
(FUCKING VOICELESS)
Here I stand, forsaken
As if I am to blame
For all of my pain
And though I know I am not
The suffering remains
Are we not the same?
Not the same?
The Voiceless Victims
Disregarded
The Vastness of the Void
No one helps them
There are so many
People like, People like me
Left with no voice, Stripped and helpless
Yet we still plead
(OH)
Here I stand, all alone
With my heart in my hands
Begging you to please
Please, understand
What I am
But you never listen
So I keep waiting
Until then
Here I stand, still waiting
(Still) Waiting for the day
That we are the same
But until then, I will bear
I will endure the pain
Are we not the same?
Not the same?
THE VOICELESS, VICTIMS
THE VASTNESS, OF THE VOID
THE VOICELESS, VICTIMS
THE VASTNESS, OF THE VOID
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Alone, I Lament
06:58
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Breaking away from the grasp of my grief
Within this anguish, I find relief
Tearing away from the pain as I weep
Shaming myself, I bury it deep
This house gathers dust
Its foundation cracked and hewn
A Spring without you (Without you)
An Ode to all that I knew
Movements of my heart
A Symphony of misfortune
Alone, I Lament (I Lament)
For the face I can’t forget
Breaking away from the depths of memory
Within the darkness, a dead motif
Stepping into the embrace of defeat/ An
Endless cycle that I am doomed to repeat
Fabricating thoughts of stability
Though I’m not okay, admittedly
An Embodiment of bleak epitome
Suffering, oh so capriciously
Cultivating only declivity
Behold this rapturous soliloquy
Forging a road of ubiquity
Suffering, oh so abysmally
Even THOUGH
YOU ARE GONE
I KNOW YOU ARE HERE
EVEN THOUGH
YOU ARE GONE
I KNOW THAT
YOU ARE RIGHT HERE
WITHIN ME
Breaking away from the grasp of my grief
Within this anguish, I find relief
Tearing away from pain as I weep
Shaming myself, I bury it deep
Painting a portrait of calamity
A last blue ruin ripe with vanity
Fanning the flames of all this guilt/ Till
Nothing is left of what we had built
The shallow words and auspicious lies
Hear the words that I now eulogize
Abandonment is all I know
A homeless heart, a hollow hole
Even THOUGH
YOU ARE GONE
I KNOW YOU ARE HERE
EVEN THOUGH
YOU ARE GONE
I KNOW THAT
YOU ARE RIGHT HERE
WITHIN ME
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8. |
A Far Cry From Fortitude
04:38
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This chapter ends
And another begins
The past is dead
Like a breath on the wind
Look me in the eyes
And tell me the truth
Fill my head with lies
As you slaughter my youth
A Far Cry
From Fortitude
Closing my eyes
Waiting for the end
A Far
Cry from
Fortitude
Waiting for the end
I am struggling
With my darkness
I am waiting for
For it all to fucking end
I am Sinking faster
Into the abyss
This life is Accursed
A far cry from fortitude
It is humbling
And cathartic
Always knowing that
This could be the final bend
I am becoming
Something more than
Something more than
A complacent fucking puppet
A Far
Cry From
Fortitude
Waiting for the end
Suffering is an empty glass
Fill it up and let it pass
Leave your Agony in the past
That is all I will ever ask
Seeking
Out the fucking answers
Waiting
For the fucking end
Seeking
Out the fucking answers
Waiting
WAITING
Hungering for warmth at last
Fuck the future, fuck the past
Catch the present in the act
That is all I will ever ask
A Far
Cry from
Fortitude
Waiting for the end
I am here to stay
There is nothing
That could take that
From Me
Suffering is an empty glass
Fill it up and let it pass
Catch the present in the act
That is all that I fucking ask
(MEMOIR)
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Epilogue
01:44
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(Sample)
No Home To Go Back To
Nothing left but Fucking Rubble
Rubble
That you
Manufactured
No Home To Go Back To
Nothing left but Fucking Rubble
Rubble
No Home
No Home To Go Back To
Back To
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Excruciating Euphoria Maryland
Founded in October 2017, Excruciating Euphoria began as a meager, not-so-serious Noise/Grind based project, but over the years, has evolved into a more serious, multi-genre endeavor, seemingly with a life of its own.
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